The good news is that my stitches are out, beginning my return to normalcy. Or so I assumed. I still can't fully bend my index finger and the tip of my finger is numb, which makes simple things like typing more difficult than I expected still at this point. But at least it is getting better.
I was more scared than I'd like to admit about getting the stitches out, mostly because I remember a time when I was naive, back when Clover was born. A resident came into my hospital room four days after Clover's birth to remove my c-section stitches, an action I welcomed as the last step before signing out and returning home. I didn't think about how removing thread sewn into a very bruised and sensitive area would feel. It hurt. To put it mildly. Stitch removal was on my list of worries when I prepared for my c-section with Rocket and sure enough, again it hurt.
Index fingers are tougher than a cut up abdomen and luckily that means I worried about the stitches in my finger for nothing. It felt weird and slightly painful, but it wasn't too bad and it was over in a few minutes.
Stitches have a Frankenstein feel for me. The reminder of being sewn together like a rag doll is disturbing. I'm so happy to have them out.
Today Clover's friend helped flip her over on a trampoline and she landed awkwardly, hurting her back a little. She cried and carried on for a few minutes - although she stopped complaining long enough to run across the backyard to look at a dead bird's grave, then she wondered why my concern for her back had vanished. Later she told Rocket that she hurt her back, then lowered her voice to add, "It hurts as bad as getting stitches." "Um, what?" I asked from the other room. "Oooookkaaay, it hurts almost as bad as stitches...but it's worse than a bee sting." Her argument was undercut by the fact that she's experienced neither stitches nor a bee sting, but lucky for her, her brother doesn't know that. "Oh, sorry Clo," he said while he patted her back, finally giving her the unquestioning sympathy she sought. Now we are all on the road to recovery.